down days
lyrics
I know I’m supposed to feel happy and driven and proud
And I’m supposed to feel feelings and scream them out loud
And I’m supposed to be filled up by dancing in crowds
But I’m not.
Everything makes me feel tired and bored and empty,
And living just feels like a chore to be remedied
By sleep, or just dying, or drugs, or drunk fighting,
Or crying alone over nothing
(aahhhh)
And then I see him smiling at her as she looks in his eyes
And I see that her curls are more natural than mine
I’m not good enough, for anyone
Least of all someone to love
Maybe I’ll change into someone who’s worthy or just someone who feels,
And I’ll put on her curls, or her coat, or high heels
I’m qualified to play pretend but how much can I really conceal
(aahhh)
Tell me a story of someone who laughs with her heart and her soul,
Someone who cries like a child when she’s cold
Someone who feels what she feels and can’t change it for smiles or for show
I always imagined I’d marry an actor who was different to me
Someone more grounded but still perfectly free
With great British manners, and a comforting voice
Calling me home for tea
(aaahhh)